People who feel connected to celebrities freak me out. We don't know these people, we aren't a part of their lives. I love watching and being entertained, but there are very few celebrities that I really feel like I've learned from or who have pulled something out of me.
Joan Rivers is one of those people.
I remember being maybe 11, watching The Fashion Police and just absorbing everything she said. Her attention to detail and love of style helped create my love of fashion. I learned names and patterns of high end designers from her. Before then I never felt like I was an artist or appreciated art until I discovered fashion and she opened my eyes.
I am someone who is extremely blunt (cringe worthy sometimes) and I tend to speak my mind. This is attributed to my parents, but also the women I look up to. I love funny women, and after Lucille Ball there was Joan Rivers. I saw her say things and speak her mind but always with a smile and with a joke. She was opinionated and crass, and I was enthralled.
She helped teach me in so many ways. I could even tell how loyal she was because she never went through a breathe without mentioning her daughter or her grandson. She was always supporting other women in comedy, and that's a rough place for a woman to be. She blazed the trail for my favorite ladies Kathy Griffin and Chelsea Handler.
And I'll never stop saying what I'm thinking.