Ok, whenever you are doing something intense, bad or insane do you get a feeling? I always do, it shoots into my hands. I can't explain it, whenever I feel something crazy I always get this crazy feeling in my hands, like fireworks going off. I think I'm a pretty good liar, but whenever I am telling a serious lie, I feel it. Whenever I meet a guy that is going to be a serious part of my life I feel it. Whenever I kiss a guy that means anything to me I feel it. Whenever I am doing something insane I feel it.
With guys I have felt it with a few, one in particular. I feel like part of the reason I have been single for this long is because I know that feeling and until I feel it again I think I'm just settling. I don't believe in love at first sight, I'm a huge believer in ending up with your best friend, but the feeling that person gives you I believe in. I remember distinctly the feeling with I met this one guy, the feeling shot into my hands and that was it, for a long time I was stuck, and every guy I've met since when I don't get that shooting feeling I just move on. It might have just been him, but I don't want to give him that much credit, he's an ass.